Even My Feelings Have Feelings
It has been a while since I last wrote. Almost a month! Work has been really busy. This week was my birthday week and during this time I get very emotional and reflective. Mother’s dont get enough credit when people celebrate one’s birthday. I want to give a shout out to my mom as I am grateful that she has given me life.
She is a very strong woman and I strive to one day be as strong as her. Her strength can also be a weakness. I feel like she hold her emotions close to her heart. She makes decision based on logic and practicality. I realized recently most people are like this. Most people do not talk about their thoughts, feelings/emotions - and if they do, they process things on their own (in their own head).
I am the total opposite, and put my Asian ancestors to shame, I am very empathic, emotional and love to talk about feelings. I worry about how things are communicated so people are not offended and the message we send is positive. Not totally terrible but at the same time, I can be quite volatile. Recently, I have been emotional in a negative way. Working long hours, hungry because I have no time to make myself a proper meal, and lashing out on those who are closest to me. One of my good friends, Dr. Audrey Hoo reminded me that when you start to feel the imbalance in your body or mind, remember to HALT. The acronym for H.A.L.T. means hungry, angry, lonely, and tired. Basically, we are all human and if we are triggered and feel hungry, angry, lonely, and tired, we will not feel like our best selves. One way to combat H.A.L.T. is to have a consistent self-care routine.
Ways I plan to shift my schedule and focus on self care:
Financial Health: this one is something at the top of my list. I want to live with less, be more simple. Life is not complicated unless you make it. I want to spend less to give more. One of my life goals is to be able to donate money consistency to causes I care deeply about. Right now, I am saving consistently.
Mental Health: start my day off my meditating
Physical Health: after work, which I plan to “stop” at 5PM and then get a work out in and sweat once a day.
Podcast: Notes To Self, Love JLieu
