Food Diary Struggles

What I show people I eat online/social media:
Healthy always, local as much as possible


What I actually eat
crap (yes, I know I have a problem)



8/26 Friday – 6:30PM
Laura Mary’s Class

Fridays are always so fun. Mix positive energy, music and flow and you get the best yoga class ever. It was great seeing everyone in class – everyone smiling and excited to work out! We practiced a flow today that was similar to Tuesday. Lots of calf strengthening. My favorite was we had time to practice inversions and arm balances. Hurdler’s pose – I’m coming for you!

Laura Mary worked her wisdom as always and explained how we should practice not just on the mat but off the mat and it can make a world of difference. I was really able to relate to this as I am participating in YTT, and we have to be aware of how everything ties together. I left feeling like I was on cloud nine. I cannot wait to do this again tomorrow!

Yoga Teacher Training – Day 5

In the past 5 days I have seen a lot of positive change in my overall well-being. My top three changes include: IMG_0921.jpg

  1. Eating Habits
    If anyone knows me at all – they know I love food. I am always eating. It can be a good thing because if I am eating, I cannot say the wrong thing as I have food in my mouth.
  2. Personal and Professional Pace
    My normal speed is to go – go – GO! I try to get things done quickly and want to check everything off my list. While sometimes this can be a strength, I have learned to slow down. To take more time to do everything with intention. While I feel like I am slowing down, it is helping more to be accurate and not have to do things twice.
  3. Physical and Mental Strength
    Prior to YTT, I felt very dissatisfied with myself. No matter what I did, it was not enough. I was not training hard enough, fit enough etc etc. A lot of negative self talk. With yoga, self acceptance has helped me to gain back back confidence and has reminded me to love myself. To take care of me before trying to do so much.

8/25 Thursday – 5:30PM
Laura Mary’s Class
red. ants. everywhere.
Today, class was outdoors and while I do love Ala Moana Beach Park – I was very distracted by all the red fire arts running around my mat. I did my best to ignore them and to focus on my practice. In class, Laura Mary spoke about sometimes, when we ask a question, we already know the answer. She gave the example about asking the doctor about her ankle and if she would be able to run. The doctor said no, and she already had a feeling that it would be the case. Sometimes we already know it but want confirmation. We need to trust ourselves more. It is easy to say but harder to do and that is normal.

This is not just about trusting our own judgement but also with yoga/fitness. Today I attempted hurdlers pose I had a hard time letting go and trusting myself in the pose. Knowing myself, it is not that I cannot do it but my fear holds me back. Ugh. Fear. I know that the feeling is similar to crow pose. If I accomplish the pose once, I will be able to do it again and again.


8/23 Tuesday – 8:15PM 
Laura Mary’s Class
Today was amazing. Each time I go to class I feel so blessed. In the beginning of class, Laura Mary shared with us a quote, and it said we need to treat our ourselves like the way we would treat our best friend. She is so right. Most of the time, we wake up, go to work and worry about everyone and everything else and do not care for ourselves the way we should. I am very guilty of this. Throughout class I reminded myself to do my best and tried to wipe out any negative self talk. (This is SUPER hard for me.) Small wins!

During class, we had the opportunity to play with arm balances. Sounds fun right? I attempted a handstand and it went pretty well until it did not. Part of me is scared of letting go, however, letting go is the only way I will be able to get into the pose. It is a work in progress and I am determined to improve. Next class is on Thursday and I am looking forward to challenging myself again and being outdoors! Practice has been mainly indoors and feels like a sauna. The humidity does not help either. Signing off today!


I. am. so. sore. I’m still in shock that I am doing yoga teacher training. I don’t have much to say but I need to keep hydrated and keep going. These next couple of weeks will be exciting.

Note to self: Sleep on time!  


Note: these are my personal inner thoughts. you have been warned!

8/21 Sunday – 11:00AM 
Laura Mary’s Class

YES! I am so excited for class! Today’s class intention: I’m going to pay extra attention to how she cues her poses and the intention of breath. <class starts> Is it just me or is class super hard today? Wait – no negative talk. Today’s class is full of opportunity to learn. Firefly? Yeah I can do that pose. Wait – why is everyone off the floor and I am still on the floor? Think positive Jenn – remember? Laura Mary says we become what we think. Believe you are a firefly and you are flying! WHY ISNT THIS WORKING? I am STILL on the ground. Whew. ok we are finally out of that pose. Was that just the warm up? ACK! Okay… it is going to be a long day…. savasana – finally! I bet I cannot mess this one up…

Screen Shot 2016-08-21 at 11.05.29 PM 8/21 Sunday – 6:00PM
Laura Mary’s Class

Round two! The chance to push myself to be better. The first class was a warm up and now you can give it all you got. <Laura Mary cues for half moon> You got this Jenn! uh – oh… timbeeerrrr. Yep. I just fell out of position. Ok, getting back into position. Wait! Now it is time for inversions and binds. Why are my hands not reaching? One step at a time Jenn, you cannot rush this. We are now partnering up for head stand. Tulsi is amazing! Look at her go. Okay, you can be like that too! Focus on the pose and breathe Jenn. Focus… focus…focus….oh noo. That loud boom was me. At least no one heard me fall.

“Jenn want me to spot you?” Tulsi asked.
DOH! “Um, sure of course” I responded.

Now Jenn, you have someone helping you – don’t. mess. it. up.
<I start getting into the pose>
Man, Tulsi is a good spotter. She is good at giving direction too on how to be successful with this pose. I have a lot of studying to do this week! Ok ok enough, back to focusing on my poses. I feel like I am really working it today. My arms are a little shaky but I will be ok. So. Many. Poses. Oh yay! Happy baby! We are almost done with class!
“…and Namaste”
Wait… class is over?! NOOOOOO I cannot believe it – when I started to get into a groove, class ends! Boo…I  guess there is always Tuesday!

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 8/21 Sunday – 7:00PM 
Laura Mary’s Class

Meditation class? PERFECT! This music is killing me.. all I wanna do is write short skits about birds doing yoga. Ok maybe I should have a diverse group of animals going yoga. 1….2… 3… breathe. Wait ack! I am off. I need to start over. Never mind I guess we are counting to 10 now… are we done yet? Meditation is great when guided. But when there is too much silence, my mind def wanders… like below… 

Yoga Teacher Training – Day 1

Yoga Teacher Training – who isn’t a yoga teacher now a days? I feel like everyone I know either has or is going to take yoga teacher training (YTT). Maybe it is because of who I surround myself with, or maybe it is the new hipster thing to do.

Whatever the case, I wanted to share with you all (the world) my journey for these next nine weeks while I attend YTT. Let’s begin:

It was the first day of class and boy was I scared! It is always exciting and nervous when you start a new class – or anything new for that matter. My biggest fear was not being good enough or not being liked/accepted by my peers. Laura Mary Flynn, our instructor cleared all of my fears within 10 minutes of class. She greeted our group with open arms, sending her love and positive energy to everyone. I know it might sound cheesy but I am for REAL!

Class was off to an amazing start. We proceeded to listen to a TED talk about The Power of Vulnerability. It is when you are vulnerable you are able to learn more about yourself, who you are and why you do what you do. In class we were asked how did this video make us feel and I shared that my whole life, I was taught to be the complete opposite. Don’t let people see your true self. Don’t let people see you are weak. These are things I was taught at a young age and I understand it was to protect me. Now – it is really about reading a situation understanding that there is a time and place for emotions. Vulnerability can be a weakness but also used as a strength.

We continued on to the next section of class where we were introduced to the first 10 postures of yoga. We learned the benefits of each posture along with cues on how to lead a student into the pose and modifications to make it easier or more challenging. I have taken many classes and being a teacher is way harder than being a student. It is a different mind set. When you practice, you take care of you, and you are in control of your body movements. When you teach you have to be a very clear and effective communicator. You have to start with the breath, say the name of the pose, the sanskrit name of the pose and lead from the feet and move your way up. There is a lot to remember, consider and on top of all that, to sound calm, cool and collected. It was an intense first day but I am looking forward to tomorrow and the next eight weeks!



2 Cups of Rolled Oats
1 Cup of Chunky Peanut Butter
1/2 Cup of PB 2
1/2 Cup of Carob Chips
2 Tsp of Chia Seeds
2 Tsp of Flax Seeds

Mix all items in a blender
Refrigerate for 30 min
Roll out balls + enjoy!
(Always keep refrigerated)


Making Space
Today’s intention is to make more space for me.
It has been quite a weekend. Everyone is busy – and I get it. There are times where I feel that I give so much of my time and consideration to others and in the end, it is not reciprocated. My parents taught me to never expect anything back when you do/give something for others. I try my hardest to remember and practice this way of thinking. However, when I do bend over backwards for some, especially family, expressing gratitude means a lot to me. Right now, I feel torn, upset and disappointed.

A recipe for disaster:
Taught to please others + do everything in my power to make people happy + not expecting anything in return = resentment and anger

In the end, I know I deserve to be happy and it all starts with me. I am the only person that can change me. Identifying the problems are easy, but finding a solution is what matters.  The solution: Put my own well being as a priority by giving myself the opportunity to care for my own health + happiness.


Today’s intention is to care with compassion.

compassion (noun) com·pas·sion \kəm-ˈpa-shən\
a feeling of wanting to help someone who is sick, hungry, in trouble, etc.


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